Tonight

I had a conversation with a girl that i celebrate as genuine. She helped.
I worked out.
I laughed at a funny song my girl wrote to express my state of mind.
I texted.
I opened facebook
I somehow sparked a little unexpected excitement.
I took a shower.
I watched a movie and found sweet relief.
I snuggled on the couch with a blanket.
I had a conversation and found approval.
I smiled to myself.
I watched the bachelor and wondered about speed.
I forgot to watch my words.
I felt my stomach turn.
I looked in the mirror.
I coughed.

...and i counted the days till i get to see you.